In seasons of grief and loss, it’s easy to get stuck in pondering and asking why. And as humans, we may never know. In all truth, we may not want to know or God may be shielding our eyes from something too big to fathom.
I came across this verse not too long ago.
“Then the Lord said, “Shall I hide from Abraham what I am about to do?”
Genesis 18:17 NIV
The Bible narrative then goes on to show Abraham pleading for Sodom and Gomorrah. The conversation goes back and forth with Abraham testing God on the number of righteous people present before God will destroy. Ultimately, God destroys the cities and few are saved. While on this earth, there is no way to know how many God will choose to save. It is glorious that He chooses to save any of us.
In my own life, God could have chosen to take my life at many, many points before I became a believer, and many times since. I am blessed to be here today while one of my loved ones has recently passed in a shocking way. It’s a tough choice every day to decide when to sit with this for a bit to process through and when to keep moving. God has been gracious in reminding me this is His schedule, His way, not mine. To help me sort out judgements, anger, fears, and other distorted thinking. To show me some really radiant days that I walked into thinking might be dark. This is His way, to shine as a light in the darkness. Always, eternally present.
Jesus, I long to see Your goodness and gentleness when the days are rough. When unspeakable things happen. Your promise is an easy yoke, not a heavy one. Guide me in Your Truth. Your love is unending and I am thankful. Amen.